I am tired. Age is catching up with my parents, and sometimes I find myself having to bear the brunt of it at times.

Doctors' appointments all the time, pains and aches here and there, stressing over everything big or small- whether it is cancerous, a tumour, the tip of the clinical iceberg. It's tiring. I know its selfish, but I am tired of worrying about EVERYTHING. Why did you have kids so late, at 43?! Maybe if I were older I could be of more use, both financially and emotionally.

I really should stop sounding like a selfish brat. I am thankful for them of course, they are both loving and supportive parents but its just that sometimes it can get rather stressful.