It keeps on haunting me, I swear. I tell myself the same thing over and over again, to trust and to have faith and to let go of my misguided assumptions.

It's really hard. I'm ridden with guilt.

And I don't know how to say I'm sorry.

But I'm so scared that its going to haunt me for the rest of my life, it has the potential to.

I can't fight the tears anymore.