my com is back. everything is back except everything i saved. kazaa all gone too. sad. but dont think i'm going to dl it back cos its very virus-prone. anw. the past few days hasnt been good. bloody cheng siew and rebecca are fucking hell irritating. crazy anti social low life lesbians. and nina is getting weirder and weirder. on sat she was surprisingly like a tefal pan: non-stick. and i dont really care if any of them reads this. and another maths tutor just quit teaching me. 3rd in a row. hello. and.. my father isnt exactly in the pink of health. his waist hurts alot and he cant move about very well. its causing him alot of trouble and me alot of worry. he has mild osteoarthiritis of his fingers, and he suspects its the same thing thats causing his waist problem. basically osteoarthiritis is just due to the breaking down of cartilage that cushions the joints. very common among old people. but the problem is that even tho my father is old he cant retire yet because i need the money for my education. i feel really sad for him because his friends are all enjoying their retirement and he's still slogging away because he has to bring me and my brother up. i know he can just retire now and just let us live on whatever savings he has but then this would mean compromising alot, like we would probably have to go to poly or something or work extra hard and get a scholarship to uni, and thats why he wont retire yet, he wants us to have the best he could possibly provide. but hes so old, and im just so scared something happens to him, because my life would just shatter if he weren't around. not only because of the financial factor. ok im getting really emotional now.